I think The Donnas picked a perfect time to released their Greatest Hits 16. Listening to some of their classic songs made me remember what it was like to be a fourteen-year-old boyhunter, experimenting with alcohol and giving the middle finger to anyone who thought they were better than me. In retrospect, not that much has changed.
College is finally out, and I’m back working the nine to five. I could never complain about my job (it’s ace), but I do complain about the price/duration/tardiness of the commute via public transport. Oh, and the fact I’ve been living off 65 pence pasties from Sainsbury’s to curb my recent overspending…
In terms of general life, it’s still full of…drama! Trouble is whenever there’s an absence of drama, I chase it. Everyone who knows me, knows I have to have a little bit of drama otherwise the world falls apart. Y’know, volcanoes erupt, tsunamis occur - that kinda thing. But every time I find it, drama comes from somewhere else and I end up taking on far more than I can handle and tying myself in knots.
Well…whatever. I spent some time re-evaluating the person I am versus the person I want to be. I threw myself into situations I really didn’t want to be in, got caught up, and got burnt. Well, first time round it made me upset for about a week. And then I got back out and did all over again. And now that’s ended badly too. It’s kind of weird, just because I was going head first into summer with a million possibilities and actually dating guys again, and now I’m just wondering when I let myself get so caught up. So I think I’m gonna settle down and have a quite summer: focus on work, studying, learning to drive and surrounding myself with good friends.
And the two lines to live by are “Girl you better go get your armour” (Battlefield, Jordin Sparks) and “This time baby, I’ll be bulletproof” (Bulletproof, La Roux).
17/7/09 
