I think The Donnas picked a perfect time to released their Greatest Hits 16. Listening to some of their classic songs made me remember what it was like to be a fourteen-year-old boyhunter, experimenting with alcohol and giving the middle finger to anyone who thought they were better than me. In retrospect, not that much has changed.

College is finally out, and I’m back working the nine to five. I could never complain about my job (it’s ace), but I do complain about the price/duration/tardiness of the commute via public transport. Oh, and the fact I’ve been living off 65 pence pasties from Sainsbury’s to curb my recent overspending…

In terms of general life, it’s still full of…drama! Trouble is whenever there’s an absence of drama, I chase it. Everyone who knows me, knows I have to have a little bit of drama otherwise the world falls apart. Y’know, volcanoes erupt, tsunamis occur - that kinda thing. But every time I find it, drama comes from somewhere else and I end up taking on far more than I can handle and tying myself in knots.

Well…whatever. I spent some time re-evaluating the person I am versus the person I want to be. I threw myself into situations I really didn’t want to be in, got caught up, and got burnt. Well, first time round it made me upset for about a week. And then I got back out and did all over again. And now that’s ended badly too. It’s kind of weird, just because I was going head first into summer with a million possibilities and actually dating guys again, and now I’m just wondering when I let myself get so caught up. So I think I’m gonna settle down and have a quite summer: focus on work, studying, learning to drive and surrounding myself with good friends.

And the two lines to live by are “Girl you better go get your armour” (Battlefield, Jordin Sparks) and “This time baby, I’ll be bulletproof” (Bulletproof, La Roux).

Ahoy. A bit later than anticipated but…“Now guess who’s back with a brand new track they got everybody in the club goin’ madddd….”

Life’s been up and down lately, I’m slowly learning than I’m a lot of things that I thought I wasn’t, some good and some bad. In the past fortnight I’ve had one of the worst weeks ever, and it all got let out in the tears… I had about eight different negative events hits me within the space of five days and it was one of those “I feel so low, what’s it gonna take to bring me back up?” Well the answer is always me, and a group of friends who I wouldn’t give up for the world. Oh and I also had a few moments of “WHAT THE FUDGE!?” but I just sit back and laugh at everything now… I’m still not one-hundred percent there but I’m getting better every day. And the amount of “EXPLAIN YOUR TWEETS” texts/IMs I’ve been getting…I really need to stop being so honest, haha.

Recent events have been scarce, two weeks ago it was Georgie’s seventeenth where we went out to a lovely Italian restaurant and I bought her metallic green Skullcandy Lowriders. I remembered she liked my lime green ones, but when hers came they were ONE MILLION TIMES NICER THAN MINE and I was nearly crying with envy. I visited Cambridge University a few days after for the Politics, Psychology and Sociology talks, which blew my mind…I don’t think I could ever set the bar that high for getting in but WOW. And I saw two of my college friends who were there on a summer school, I literally RAN down the street and began dancing like an utter idiot. They screamed in shock.

Oh and the picture above is keeping to my old tradition of alcohol-related posted, whereby I was slightly too intoxicated at my friend’s eighteenth birthday shenanigans. I ended up with so many bruises. And I think the drink count was…two glasses of wine, a double Red Bull and vodka and a pint of pear cider. I really need to man up my liver.

Oh, and college ends at 2.30pm TOMORROW. I’m so excited! I start working full-time on Thursday though, I’m so broke! And I’m due to leave for college in…twenty minutes. But I found my Urban Decay black eyeliner after six months so I’m going to spend far too long in the mirror…adios!